I am having a good cry over an email one of you, my dear readers, sent me. What you said made me feel less lonely and a lot less stupid for what I’ve been feeling. I am sorry that you do understand what I’m going through, for that means you have suffered surprising loss [...]
Dear Muse:
Please visit me today. I’ve really been gaining weight and getting depressed and frustrated standing on the steps of your house, diligently trying to write but in reality just writing very uninspired stuff. I’m hitting delete almost as quickly as the words themselves. When will you come out to visit me? [...]
earthquake. this one, i could feel starting before it climaxed into a huge tremble.
My MFA program starts up this week–my first workshop since the stroke is next Tuesday evening. I’m trying to amp myself up for the return to school! I really am full of hope. I really do feel like a new beginning approaches.
But I am also filled with self doubt as the door [...]
I’m in the mountains for the weekend, spending warm afternoons lazing about on the couch, while the gusts of wind cool the prickly sweat off of my body. I really like it when the backs of my knees dry like that–because I really hate it when I’m sweaty in my joints. I actually [...]
The trip was a flurry. Six days, five nights…2 countries (England and France), 3 cities (London, Beaune, France). The schedule: Land in London, eat dinner, sleep…wake up the next morning, take the train to Paris, pick up a rental car and drive to Beaune by mid-afternoon. Two nights in Beaune, then drive [...]
I feel like if I blink, I’ll miss something here in Paris, we are moving so quickly, the pace frenetic at times. The week has gone by in such a blink as well (if I were to further that metaphor).
I wonder how this will all sink into my head, my psyche–I know that the [...]
I’m in Paris! It’s beautiful here, more beautiful than I remember.
We have kept up what I consider an insane pace–spending no more than 2 nights in any single place. London, one night. Beaune, two nights. Now Paris. But this is our last stop. And I have internet access again! [...]
I’m in the airline lounge, resting at the airport before boarding an airplane to…further rest for 10 hours in the air.
On the way to the airport, I did a typical “me” thing: I dropped my camera. My BRAND NEW camera that I am SO HAPPY about. I broke its lens mechanism. I [...]
I got 2 baby announcements in the mail today–one from a friend that I have not heard from in months and months. I was starting to get worried about her and decided to send her a card, when I got hers, welcoming her son into the world, instead. Ah–she had been pregnant this entire [...]
Making the time to write is a tricky thing. As I skimmed through my bloglines this morning, I came across Elizabeth’s post at Fluent and Nova’s post at Distraction No. 99, both detailing their writing struggles–getting out of that box, making the time to write, watching others do it, willing themselves to do it, [...]
I got my, I don’t know, tenth rejection letter from another litmag for my short story…the same one that was a finalist in a writing contest (sorry, I’m not naming the contest to protect my identity). It is so f*cking discouraging to send sh*t out and then hit the wall each time. And [...]
