Entries from December 2007

December 31, 2007

Exit 2007

I hope you all have a wonderful new year.
I for one am happy to close the door on 2007. I bound happily and eagerly over the threshold into 2008. Let’s hope that what waits for us on the other side is full of happiness, peace, enlightenment, creativity, good health, and great luck. [...]

December 30, 2007

not knowing

I still don’t know what to do. It’s totally lame. If I could just stick my head in the sand and wait life and my desires out, I would. There’s a fork in the road, and I can’t figure out which road to take. I can’t figure out how to prioritize. [...]

December 30, 2007

Let your wishes rain down

I just found out you can get a message printed on a piece of the confetti in Times Square–and registered my wish. The message-carrying confetti pieces will be mixed with the other confetti.
This year, when I watch the confetti dropped on Times Square on New Year’s Eve, I’ll have the image of wishes floating [...]

December 27, 2007

holiday mail

It’s the holiday season, a time when I run to the mailbox knowing there’s a slightly higher chance of receiving a personal greeting amidst the numerous bills. I love holiday cards–regardless of whether or not there’s a personal note or a typewritten “year in summary” note. (This year, as I read the “year [...]

December 23, 2007

Road Trip

I am on a road trip.
Will be back soon.

December 22, 2007

into night

Winter solstice–the shortest day, and longest night of the year. After tonight, daylight begins its march back into our lives, minute by minute.
It is so quiet.
Except for the sound of my keyboard.

December 22, 2007

a toast

Thank goodness for friends. They dragged me out to celebrate my MFA graduation, in the wake of my blase finale. None of them are writers, but they all know what it means to reach a goal, and then to move on to new ones.
We shared a toast, and then set to business, which [...]

December 20, 2007

return to sender

Last week, I sent a holiday card to an estranged cousin. I’d hoped he would receive it, knowing I wish him well. And maybe open a dialogue of sorts, maybe reconnect me to his sister.
A story bloomed in my head from all the possibility.
Yesterday, I got the card back. The envelope was [...]

December 17, 2007

Survivor Meme

I was looking through “Survivor’s” website tonight (yes, I know how desperate and lonely that sounds), and came across the Survivor profiles. Each of the Survivor contestants, I guess, have to fill out a questionnaire, and they get asked the same questions each year. I am guessing these favorites will be used to [...]

December 16, 2007

genuine feelings

No one told me that graduating from my MFA program would feel like postpartum depression.  Or just, depression.
I am feeling very very lost these days. And for someone who usually is (or feels) as surefooted as I am, this sensation of uncertainty is alarming. The bottom, in a way, has fallen out of [...]

December 13, 2007

Another Life

I have to confess–I’ve been fantasizing about another life. I’ve been furtively perusing rental properties in New York and London, and thinking of having a child. I’ve been imagining stepping out of a flat, greeting a doorman, and hitting the sidewalk of a bustling metropolis, walking to dinner each night (wearing a cute [...]

December 12, 2007

bleah

i feel like i’m falling apart this week.  every once in awhile i have to shut my eyes and take a deep breath.  “keep it together.”  (yes like in bowfinger).