i need a manicure and pedicure–the state of my fingers and toes is horrendous. and i must admit, i can tell some internal anxiety meter is spiking. because i do these HORRIBLE things when i get stressed out:
i pick at the hangnails on my fingers (and gnaw on them)…and i also pick the bottoms of my feet. i have not done the “picking of the bottoms of my feet” in YEARS but now i’m doing it again. what the fuck? i just pick and pick at the dry skin and now the bottom of my right foot is so cut up and tender. is this just another manifestation of self-mutilation? or just a nervous tic? or what?
if i grossed you out, apologies. this is just one of those things i can now post on an anonymous blog. and now i have officially blogged something personal and NOT about writing here (i’m trying to diversify).