I’m rallying forces. I want to say that despite my moody thoughts, I am happy. I’m not in a pit of unending misery, but I am feeling thoughtful and introverted and I am on an inward search for my own answers. I am definitely feeling lost, something that this goal-oriented, likes-to-plan-things-out-and-strategize person is not very comfortable with. But I guess being lost has its rewards, too.
Earlier this week, we had a team builder at work–we went on a massive scavenger hunt throughout the City, solving puzzles, collecting information and points throughout the day. It was, for lack of a better phrase (or maybe this is the best phrase to describe it), “loads of fun.” I loved my team, and we actually ended up winning the whole thing. (RAR!)
So–why can’t my search be fun, too? It should be. The outcome will be huge, greater than the scavenger hunt, and mysteries lie before me. The rewards are hauntingly great, the terrain challenging, and I may be at times morose or joyful, sometimes both at the same time. I don’t know where I’m going, sometimes there are no such things as hints, and I’m definitely alone in this journey, but I can give myself relief, too.
Aside from trying to attain this psychic balance, I’m trying to gain energy. (I *hate* being so tired ALL the time! It’s especially maddening because physical exercise does not exert me so much as thought.)
I’m going on a trip starting next week–we are heading to Europe, to France specifically, for a friend’s wedding. A weeklong trip, where we’ll hit London and Paris and the Burgundy region of France. I’m not liking the fact that we’re going in August (my least favorite month for traveling, especially in Europe)…but there will still be lots to sightsee and I haven’t been to France in nearly ten years.
Any suggestions for France and Paris? I’m not so familiar with those places (I was in Paris once, but I was not in charge of my own itinerary). I’ve got two days in Burgundy, and two days in Paris, and am trying to make the most of it. I don’t know if my energy will sustain itself, but it’s worth a try.
And–it looks like we’ll be in Paris for my birthday. 🙂